From the mind of sada

SUPRISE!!!!

We decide we're gonna go see a movie. I found out last minute the house was going to be shown last night and we needed to be out.

So after some quick decision making - we decide to go see this.

I head out to the car with the boy and he says - "can you put that water in the trunk?"

I pick up the bottle and walk to the trunk - and I see it.

A box.

A BIG box.

It's for me.

The boy, bought me a brand new Lagostina Pot set.

If you know me. You know I love to cook. You know for me having cool kitchen stuff is just well - VERY very exciting!!!! And to top it all off...I just didn't have any pots yet. I've been using Dave's and a few skillets, and a wok that I picked up.

He just completely suprised me. So there I am - big dorky loser - standing in my driveway - crying like a baby.

But he's pretty awesome.

THANK YOU Crazy boy!!!!

You can dance if you want to...

I walked into the living room last night and craftfully posed the question to dave (while busting some of my COOLEST dance moves)

"Dave when does it become uncool for people to dance"

He looks at me. (I continue to bust various dance moves)

"Because seriously...like is there an age? or...." (I lose my thought - because I'm DANCING - looking UBER cool)

He continues to look at me.

"I'm not sure I have very 'cool moves'.." (now i'm using my spirit fingers, and pointing to the sky)

Dave firmly states - "STOP"

I stop.

Dave - "I don't think it's cool EVER for people to dance....but I also think it's fair to say you're done"

I reflect and process this thought.

I then begin to dance again and walk away.

I like to copy....

(saw this Jo Jo's blog...and had to give it a try!!!....So..who else thinks I look like Eddie Murphy???)

Sleepy Sada

I honestly think that my bed....is perhaps one of my FAVORITE PLACES.

Seriously....how great is it!? to come home....jump into bed....and RELAX.

I love my bed.

I love pajama's.

I think I may have a problem.

Turn me inside out....

It seems lately....

All I do is think.

I was looking at my hands the other day and couldn't believe how much they looked like my mothers....IT WAS WEIRD...when did I grow up enough to have long nails!? when did my hands begin to age?...and WHEN did I get a wrinkle in the middle of my forehead?!?

I had a girly night last night....the hermit, and jo jo were over....and it was just nice to talk. It was cool catching up and hearing how they were doing....listening to those two muffins makes my heart happy.

I brought up some weird things that have been plaguing my mind as of late....

#1. I've become overly concerned with my appearance.... It's weird. I dont' know when it happened but at some point I started comparing myself to women on t.v, women at work....women pretty much everywhere....IT IS UNHEALTHY! Can I tell you....when I was in highschool and university...i could have CARED less!!!  I never remembering worrying about any of this stuff......I was SOOO comfortable with myself...and just never even thought about what I looked like in comparison to others...or whatever. I don't know when this changed for me....hmmmm

#2. I'm very aware of my "social" position in society.....I remember theorizing oppression in university....and thinking "sure this exsists - but this does NOT apply to me"....well...BLARGGGH!!!!....THE world is SLOWLY changing - and I'm caught in what it means to be a "working woman" and what that means for me if I ever decide to settle down, have kids, and make any sort of gain in the work force....I look at the great mom's I see around me... (my mom, krista, jasmine, carolynn, margie....to name a few) and I wonder if I'll ever be able to have that kinda role in my child's life...

#3. I am a stress nugget. I am in need of some serious down time. nuff said.

AND now for something COMPLETELY different...

I GOT A NEW APPARTMENT!!!! As of November 1, 2006 - this stress muffin - will be living on her own - in a grown up appartment with a buzzer, a balcony, and a landlady who wears studded belts and SHIRTS!!! (how exciting!)

I really can't tell you how excited I am about this!!! (AND PLEASE....don't think -  I don't love Dave....and I haven't loved living with him....IT was just that magical time to get my own place)

So I'm officially starting the countdown to the big move...I've got LOTS to do and lots to buy and ya...wow.

Cry FREEDOM

After a very long couple days in Ottawa (which included a delayed flight, damage to a rental car, and some very intense emotional moments)...I arrived home to my lovely bed!!!

Dave was having a poker night with the boys.

I happily removed myself to my room to watch season 2 of the office (woohoo)...At some point during the evening the boys saw a little mousey run across the carpet in the living room.  They immediately set some traps.

I got out of bed around 12 and heard a familiar snap and some scurrying of a little mouse someplace. (I opted for my bed rather than a mouse hunt)

FAST FORWARD TO THE MORNING.

I'm sitting on the couch as dave emerges from his slumber...and I inform him of what I heard last night. He searches and finds a little mouse under the dehumidifier says he'll get it later.

I go and investigate. The little mouse is STILL ALIVE!!!!!  LIttle baby mouse is sitting there with it's tail tangled in the trap. I IMMEDIATELY DEMAND THAT DAVE HELP THE MOUSE. He says no.

I walk into my room (now almost in tears...very very very upset) and decide this is it. I MUST help the mousey. I go out into the kitchen put ziploc bags on for gloves and a grocery bag for good measure. I order dave move the dehumidifier and I now try and pick up the trap (with mouse attached) the little mousey is holding on to the carpet (clinging to life!) and I try to quickly toss it into the bag....

I RUN outside (dave is following) and go to the corner of our property and now attempt to open the trap through the plastic shopping bag...after a few attempts the little mousey JUMPED out of the bag and towards the neighbors house. (phew)

(I WAS SERIOUSLY FREAKING OUT)

I call my mother - she informs me I should have stomped on it's head! (I can't even believe these words!!!)

I decide I am officially done for the day I should not have to do ONE THING MORE!!

Happy Thursday.

(btw - we named the mouse freedom)

I AM BACK!!!

Can I just tell you that these last few days I have felt SOOO incredibly good!!!

Despite not having the best of sleeps the last few nights - I just have been feeling really really good!

I honestly felt like myself again this weekend. Just being goofy.  Having fun.  RELAXING (but at the same time doing stuff and seeing people and ALL THAT OTHER GREATNESS!!!)

I'm still a bit stressed about appartment stuff - but honestly...it's just been a good few days :)

Ok. Update time.

Here's what I've been up to/random thoughts/shout outs - WHATEVER:

1. Saw Invincible, and Little Miss Sunshine. I liked both movies - but I have to say - LITTLE MISS SUNSHINE was HILARIOUS! I laughed soo hard I was crying by the end and I think, THINK, think, THINK - that it could honestly be put in my top ten favorite movies.

2. I began watching Arrested Development season one. (Love it)

3. The boy purchased Buffy Season FIVE for me (hurrah!!!..he's FABULOUS!)

4. Today got to go out and do errandy stuff and have been dreaming of decorating appartments (SOOO fun)

5. I got to catch up with this lady, miss this lady (but harass her with numerous messages - because well it's what I do) (btw - big shout out to that working lady - YOU CAN DO IT!), plan to go see an old friend, have been sending e-mails to people I should be connecting with more often.

6. I had a hugely cool moment today at an elementary school - where I literally felt the rush of the first day of school - and caught that crazy excitement that comes with new clothes, seeing old friends, and learning something new. (And I had the urge to go buy stationary and new clothes just to fit in). GOOD LUCK TO ALL THE STUDENTS AND TEACHERS!!! (Gonna miss you MIRANDA!)